5 months ago
Sunday, 25 January 2009
gg wp nh BUSTO
Title pretty self explanatory really.
Roll was at £1000 on friday night and I sat in some £1/2 games as someone told me about a complete spewmonkey who was donating to the whole table. 5 minutes later and he'd doubled up from me twice. Obv his 4-bet jam with QJ sooted got there vs my AK and then I lost a really sick pot With QQ vs his 25ss on a 778ss flop when we put £170 each in to a £50 pot on the 2 turn for him to duly bink the Jack of spades on the river. I opened A5 hearts on the button and was flatted in the BB by a decent reg to see a Q55 flop. After leading and flatting his raise we got it in on the turn. No prizes for guessing I was drawing to one out vs Villains QQ.
I finished the night with my roll at about £100. marvellous.
I went to the gym for a few hours on saturday morning and came back home and put the remainder on 2 £50NL tables. A few hours later and I had a £320 stack on one table and £190 odd on the other. Decent semi recovery but I wasn't content to stop there and I don't know what got into me but I sat in a £2/5 omaha where I did my stack check raising all in on the river of an unpaired 3 heart board with the bare ace to get called by a 10 high flush. I sent the HH to a few friends on msn after as I don't know how he called me there when I lead out flop and turn and both felt my line was super strong and had they been in villain's seat wouldn't have called there. More I think about it more I like my line but oh well shit happens.
Question is...what to do now?
I could re-deposit but what the fuck is the point? Things are becoming more evident but I'm still not learning. I crush £50NL, I beat £100 and £200 nl fairly comfortably too but don't give myself a chance to win when I constantly jump up and tilt etc. Ok I just ran bad this time rather than tilting but it would have been the same result, whether in a week or two months.
Two of the comments from my last blog were pretty spot on and are what have kept me from redepositing another £k to rinse and repeat.
1)'BRM is mostly about discipline.
If you can't be disciplined and win with 1k against the donks how do you expect to suddenly find that discipline by depositing more?'
2)'As for the tilt thing if you cannot control it you have to ask yourself should you be playing the game?'
Both very valid points and it's got me thinking about whether or not to actually quit the game. I just don't think I can because I love it so much but I need to find a formula to help me work my round my problems with tilt and bankroll management. Whether this means taking a 3 month break, finding a mentor, using a staking site (really don't want to do this as I have the money to play and if winning don't wanna give half my profits away) I'm not sure yet.